There was a voice. A small nagging voice in the back of my mind and it was telling me that Jack would bail out of the Las Vegas trip.
Like any faithful subject, I would ignore this voice because I didn’t want to believe it. I was practicing the Law of Attraction, using positive thoughts and envisioning myself in Jack’s arms. Well, kick that fantasy goodbye. This is not going to happen. Jack is not coming to Las Vegas.
Why? Well, according to Jack, he will be “working”. And this is not simple work. He was asked to be a guest speaker at a Writer’s Conference. Oh, he is so jumping on that. It’s been a while since his presence has been requested and I was thrilled for him.
Jack called me last night to give me the Good-slash-Bad news. He asked if I wanted the bad news first. Of course, I asked for the dagger in my heart first, and give it to me, he did. “I’m not going to Las Vegas”, he stated. My heart sank, but not as low as you’d think. I mean, really, this is what I was expecting after he primed my pump for the bad news. And the good news….Gah! So, he’s going to be a guest speaker and a Writer’s Conference. SO WHAT!!!
I am going for honesty here and I am honestly pissed to the core. I am so over this, Jack. Of course we did the “I love you” dance before we got off the phone. I do love him… I am in love with him, but he’s tearing my heart apart. Even though this is a good gig for him, I can’t help but wonder the following…
- Would Jack flake out on Barbara for this gig?
- Is Jack telling the truth?
- Is he really going to attend this conference or is Barbara somewhere waiting in the wings?
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