“Hurry, let's have sex before the baby wakes up...and keep it quiet!”

How do you love two men at the same time? That's easy. I got an email today from an old lover. It was Robbie. It was a surprise and I was on guard as I opened it but it happened to be a wonderful email. In fact, it was the simplicity of the email that made it wonderful. It had the usual “how are ya?” and “whatcha up to?” and that was sandwiched in between how he was doing and how life was going for him. Ive know him longer than have known Shane and we have a wonderful history. No issues whatsoever. Maybe that's because we structured our relationship that way. I miss him as much as I love Shane, but Shane does come first. It's great to fantasize about Robbie and wonder what things would be like and to remember how exciting life was with him. I mean, that's harmless. What I do know is that I love Shane and Robbie for different reasons.

Shane is moody and brooding sometimes but he's my guy. I know that when he is upset he needs space and not to push back. Maybe even the occasional “What's going on, Shane?” and holding his hand will snap him out of his frustration rants. Shane really is shy and social at the same time. Let me clear that up. He is very sensitive. He works out and has an amazing body and people think that makes him as tough as nails, but under that 200lbs bench press is a man who is self conscious (about his accent because people always ask where he is from and he's just tired of that), shy and sensitive. Can you believe it?

Of course, you can. That's usually the type of person who is very sensitive. The prancing peacocks...the show-offs...the working actors (which Shane is) are more sensitive, in my experience or shall I say the artiste, in general. Shane is amazing and is a wonderful papa. Loving Shane is the equivalent of having the little house, white picket fence, 2.5 kids (whatever that REALLY means) and pet cat. Our relationship is going well, that's not to say that either of us is not bored. I know Shane is bored. We both crave that excitement of being in a new relationship...or in an old one for that matter.

A woman can tell when their man is bored. Sex becomes routine and that is the big clue.

No exciting spanking or ripping off each others underwear anymore. It's become, “Hurry before the baby wakes up...and keep it quiet!”

I know Shane is bored when he asks me what our neighbor is wearing today...the young 26-yr-old neighbor. I know he lusts after her, even though he has the “etiquette” to tell me that she has nothing on me. Oh yes, she does... she is 26 and I could be her much older sister. I don't worry and actually giggle at Shane for his wanderlust feelings.

I have them too they are just not important to me. I don't want to be with anyone else...

Now, back to that email from Robbie... He just made me feel good and remember that no matter how much the baby pees on my leg or no matter how many pair of unsexy but comfy pajamas I wear when Shane comes home from work...Someone out there still remembers that I am sexy and I am wild at heart. Doesn't mean I want to “go there”, it just means it's still there if I want it...and so are the cookies on top of the fridge but that doesn't mean I'm going to eat them. You know what I mean? Shane remembers I am still sexy, too, although sometimes it takes actual effort to remind him. And, that's reality.

Shane and I: In our beginnings... http://theamazinglytrueadventuresofchianne.blogspot.com/2011/05/cowboy-shane-marriage-babies-his-other.html