Thon Is A Sexy Distraction- Not A Replacement For My Sweetheart, Jack

This may seem like a really cheesy comparison, but, have you every craved pizza with pepperoni?

I mean, seriously craved pepperoni pizza and absolutely nothing else would satisfy you.  You could have the best home cooked meal ever, but you just have to have that greasy, icky, cheesy pepperoni pizza.

Ok, that may be a really awful comparison, but this is the way I feel about Jack.  Jack is not an icky pizza, but he is an acquired taste.  He certainly would not be everyone's cup of tea.  My sister doesn't get it.  She thinks Jack is a some weird old guy that has lost his love for his writing and she could care less about him.

 I hear earfuls upon earfuls from her about how she thinks I am making a huge mistake loving Jack and furthermore, she can't figure out why the hell I am so in love with Jack to begin with.  "He's an old man that looks as if he's going to give birth to a beer baby", my sister says.

I mean, I would guess that 99% of the women out there would choose Thon over Jack any day of the week based on looks alone.  I mean, Thon is gorgeous at first sight.  Jack is gorgeous, to me, and he is just as gorgeous as Thon...if not more so.  I know about his physical "flaws", or what society perceives as "flaws", but Jack looks hot and his youthful verve makes him even more desirable.

Like I've said before, I've known Jack for two years and I cannot figure out what it is about him that draws me in.  I have tried to find explanations in everything from astrology to Inception.

Yes I have a theory about Jack performing "Inception" on me.  It wasn't on purpose...or was it? 

I think Jack did perform "Inception" on me.  I can't seem to remember where the idea to fall in love with him came from.  I can't seem to remember where it began.  All of a sudden the idea was there.  It was just there as if it were handed to me.  I mean, it's possible that my subconscious was just open that day.  I was in a new environment and in an excited mental state, yet I was relaxed.  Who the hell knows?

What I do know, is that I do like Thon alot.  We have fun together and I care about him very much, but Thon is not my pepperoni pizza.  Jack is my love.  He is the love of my life. I have loved only one other man the way that I have loved Jack and I still love him very much.  I fell in love with Lee back in high school and I have not seen him in many years. I found him on Facebook and messaged him but he never sent a response.  So, that was that.  I hope Lee has a good life.

As for Jack...I struggle with Jack.  He is like a drug.  I'll get my fix of Jack next month in Las Vegas.