Dear Jack, It's Sunday...I Love You...I Love You Not...?

Today, I feel weakness and strength at the same time.

My thoughts are that I am lucky to even "feel" and be able to admit it.

Last night, Jack and Barbara went on a double movie and dinner date with Chris and his wife, Jo.

As you know, Chris and I are friends and I had been waiting on a bone from Chris.  Anything.  Some little tidbit or morsel of information.  My real goal is to find a reason to fall out of love with Jack because it hurts.  And since I am numb to feeling numbness, my emotions are flared up with the tingling sensation of a foot that has fallen asleep.  I can admit that, at least today, I feel weakness for my desire to get the intel about Jack's date last night.  I feel my strength shows because I simply cannot react like some of the women that I know and begin to harass Jack with texts and silly over emoting emails.  I know I am in control of my response to this situation and I chose to respond.  Not to react. 
Barbara is Jack's old high school flame.  And even though I got that really nice and romantic Valentine's Day phone call from Jack, since then, communication had been odd with Jack.

Jack is Bogie to my Bacall.

 So. who really knows how long Barb has made her way back into Jack's life.  It was probably some time after Valentine's Day.

I have heard nothing from Chris, which is Chris' tell-tale sign that something is serious between Barbara and Jack.  In the past, when something loopy is going on with Jack, Chris has felt the need to step up and protect me and defend me to Jack.  Of course, I have no true idea what Chris says to Jack.  I can only take into account what Chris says to me and what he doesn't say to me.  I read Chris the way I read Jack.  I have gathered information about their personalities and analyzed their behaviors, which leads to patterns of behavior.  This is helpful with communicating with them and filling in the blanks with what Chris may not say.  Chris is kind of surprised when I call him out on this.  I usually get the "how'd you know" response.  The truth is, Chris tells me without telling me.

So, hearing nothing from Chris last night about the double date tells me that something serious is going on with Jack and Barbara.

When I know, I'll share.