Move Over Jack: Shane & Chianne Are In Love?

I was going to boil Shane's bunny after not hearing from him for four days or so after our first rendezvous.

I was peeved to say the least. 

Then, I was going to kick him to the curb when I didn't hear from him all of the following week, even after running into him.

Well, the mystery was solved when I caught him 2 days in a row this week.  I saw him on Tuesday and Wednesday, respectively.

Seeing Shane both days brought me more in touch with what is going on in his life and what he is experiencing has nothing to do with me whatsoever.

Shane is going through a difficult time with an ex-.  That is understandable.  And now knowing that this ex- and Shane are not on the best of terms explains his behavior.  I mean, some things are still sketchy, and I assume he is still learning to trust and waiting for the other shoe to drop with me, but that is not the case.

I am a pretty simple gal.  What you see is what you get.  How I am in public is how I am in private.  I am don't let the super bitch inside me take the wheel.  Besides, whats the point in that?  I simply enjoy Shane's company and like having him in my life.  Now, I know that it's that simple.

I want Shane to remain part of my life.  So, if it's at all possible (even with the ex- drama), then it shall be.

Shane has his problems and drama but I am here for him.  I am here for us and what ever US there is to be in the future.

When I saw him on Wednesday, I knew something was different.  He was very affectionate in front of others.  He was more affectionate period.  He said he had lost my number out of his phone and wanted to call me about getting together soon.

I kindly gave him my number again and I waited.   No phone call that night.  I knew he was tired and simply didn't get around to it.  That's fine, besides I was not waiting up by the phone for him to call...

Well, I was sort off expecting him to give me a ring but it was OK when he did not.

Then I decided to send him a friendly text on yesterday.  Shockingly, he responded.  I responded back casually.

Then, later in the day, I got a text when I was riding the transit after work.  I was listening to some music when I looked down and read, "I love having you in my life." 

Wha????

Of course, I wanted to hear that from him, but I certainly wasn't expecting it.  It felt like it came out of the blue and I was so happy.

Instead of sending a quick response, I let Shane sweat it out a little and didn't test him a response for several hours.  Meanwhile, I could not breathe and text all my girlfriends for advise on what to say in response.

My friend Ziggy is awesome.  She gave me words of wisdom and I tweaked what she said a bit so that it didn't sound too much like someone else wrote it.  Not to mention, that I really want to take it slow with Shane.  I don't want to burn our potential relationship out.

Here's my response:

Shane, I love you in my life, also. Together we are great. We should get to know one another better, too. We wanna do this right. And not move too fast. We can have a good thing. You agree? 6:42 PM

Needless to say, when I got home last night, I had an itchy feeling that Shane was going to come over to my place.  Sure enough, after a text battle with his ex-, Shane called me up to ask how to get to my  house again...Even though he conducts (drives) a transit past my house several times a week.

I gave him directions and within the hour he was there.  We talked and had a drink.  Finally, we had a deep discussion about our past, our families and what we wanted in our future.  Then we fooled around most of the night and into the morning.  We then went to breakfast and he drove me to work.  Then, POOF....

Just like that, after a huge kiss and great hug, he was gone....but left a deep footprint in my heart.

Yeah, we say we want to take it s-l-o-w, but it doesn't happen that way.  We do have a great chemistry and connection.

I am what Shane needs.  Not to toot my own horn, but according to him, his ex- is not the fun-loving, bouncy, energetic and supportive person anymore that he needs right now.  That's me and I like being that comfort to him.  Besides, she left him.  I am sure she had her reasons.

All the ex- drama is bringing him down.  I'm not trying to get into the middle of it, I just want him to be OK and work through as best he can and not let the anger taking him down.

As far as I go, I could fall in love.  I am not in love with Shane.  Partly because I am scared and partly because I feel like I would be betraying my love for Jack.

I can honestly say that I love Jack, but with this wonderful new man in my life and Jack off revamping his career...

Who's to say that Shane would not be replace Jack as the man of my life?

Who's to say...?