To begin, I love Jack. I simply love Jack. I have tried so many times to forget Jack. I have only seen him a handful of times in my lifetime. He lives clear across the country and we don't talk to one another much. I decided that I would not do to Jack what he claims his ex-wives (plural) did to him. They smothered him.
I am not the one that will repeat this, although it's difficult not to because he really is charming. I guess, that's part of the problem.
THE DAY WE MET:
I met Jack in 2009 at a Writers convention. I am a journalist and writer and I have been for many years now. I had never attended this convention and a friend gave me her ticket to attend on a whim. I really was reluctant to attend and finally, as days began moving close to the convention date, I became interested in going. I mean, maybe I could meet some connections and get back into writing and finding a publisher for my books, as well.
Well, I made it to the convention and it was a sight to behold. Mixing in with the sea of other talented writers, I began to feel comfortable in my own skin. How nice it is to be surrounded with people who share similar interests. This day happened to be the final day of the convention, so I felt anxious as well. Would I meet any connections? Where are they? Who are they? Where the hell do I go and do I have lipstick on my teeth? I had so many questions, so to sort out my feelings and thoghts, I made a pit stop in one of the main convention halls. This was a beautiful, bright room filled with natural light filled with even more people, writers, authors and fans alike. Everywhere I looked were writers of various genres of books. Fans lined up at the writers' booths to get autographs and purchase their latest titles. I thought I would just take some time to stop trying to figure everything out and just meet the authors.
I went from one author to another. Some of them were well-known and some were not. I bought a few new books and went around the room to just take in all the sights and sounds. Then...
As soon as I looked into his eyes, I instantly felt as if I had known him for years. If Jack were a selling me food from my own fridge, I would have bought every single item. Around Jack, you feel comfortable and at ease.
There was Jack. Jack has this warmly inviting smile and tone to his voice. As soon as I looked into his eyes, I instantly felt as if I had known him for years. If Jack were a selling me food from my own fridge, I would have bought every single item. Around Jack, you feel comfortable and at ease. I didn't even realize that Jack and I, on this day, spent THREE HOURS talking to one another. The time flew as he shared his books with me, as well as highlights of his career. I was already excited about being at the convention and now meeting Jack put me over the moon. The man in the booth next to Jack laughed as he occasionally oogled our way. The woman I thought was Jack's wife, Mara, was preoccupied with reading and walking off to get refreshment. Mara was polite, but she has an edge to her tone of voice and personality. She didnt seem to want to be there with Jack. Bored is the best way to describe Mara's attitude. I am sure that she's repeatedly heard all of the stories he's shared with me. The more interest I showed Jack, the more he spoke and was interested in sharing with me. I found all three hours of chitty-chat glorious. By the time I was ready to leave, Jack asked me to stay in touch with him. I would say that I was a bit starstruck and totally excited by the invite. Of course, I took him up on his offer. For whatever reasons, there was a connection made that day. A perfect storm of meeting an interesting, accomplished and handsome older gentleman. Later that evening, I realized something more happened. I could not get Jack out of my mind. I began to learn more about him via his Wikipedia bio and other articles written about him. Jack has been in the business a long time. There is a proven track record of consistant work for many years. I began to read his books and the more I did, the more I realized that I was in love with him from the beginning.
Jack and I became friends on MySpace. He later disclosed that the oogling man next to us was a friend of his and when I finally left, he said to Jack, "So, when is the wedding?"
I guess I wasnt the only one to witness the magic of that day.
Needless to say, Jack and I stayed in touch through summer, fall and winter of 2009. I had not said anything to him about my growing admiration for him. Wait, that's an understatement. My feelings for him were more than a simple admiration. He began to consume my thoughts, but I took my time even bringing up the subject of my feelings with him. We stayed in touch and began to connect via email. We would share information about our upcoming projects. I wanted to tell Jack how I was feeling, but I held back even more. Besides, Jack was with Mara. I certainly didnt want to step on their relationship...or was there even a relationship to muss up?
NEXT: TELLING JACK ABOUT MY LOVE FOR HIM....
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